It has been almost four months of stay at my village.This is for the first time that I am staying here for such a long period.Well friends, let me give you a brief description about my village Sorona.It is situated near about 20kms far away from a place called Balugaon,very much near to the famous Chillika lake.It creates a mesmerizing effect when I get a look of this calm Lake from roof top of my home. The string of birds flying over put an added flavor to its enthralling beauty. Well looking back to my sweet village, it's a quite well developed village with all the basic facilities and I, the so called NIKI, am a small part of this. The reason for creating this blog is to share some of my experiences with my friends. Lots of thoughts are roaming in my mind without existence. This blog is like a Life to my thoughts.
These four months is the most painful time in my life. I can never forget those moments I have spent over here.I lost a big part of my life.......I lost my father. It was a tragic and unexpected situation which I could able to speak ... but I do not have the words to speak. There is no cure to the pain of his loss. My father was sick. I decided to leave my job to take care of him and to give support to my mother. So I shifted from kolkata to my village. But time had a different game to play. After spending only 20 days with my father ......suddenly one night he left us forever. It was like a shock to me & my family......much unexpected. Time erase the pain but not the memories.
Now I have nothing to do here. To get a second job is not that easy. My days became more boring and frustrating. I forgot to smile slowly. I remembered my old happy days that I had spent in Kolkata. The more I recalled them..the more I felt depressed. There is no happiness, no excitement left in my life. Everyday I was fighting with myself to find a reason to be happy....but I failed. I started complaining about my life in my prayers also. There was also a time when I used to sit alone in my room shedding tears all the day. I never tried to find a solution to it...but only expected a miracle would happen to me.
I was seeking help desperately to get out of this state. God is so kind, he listened to my prayers. No friends no miracle happened to me. But his ways are always unique. I found my solution while reading a beautiful Book. A Book of positive thoughts helps a lot. From the day I started reading them.......it ended my problems gradually. I realized that we often fail to see the beauty of life because of our inner blindness. God has given us so many reasons to smile.....but we refused to accept them. How unlucky we are really.
We are not able to like our present day although the name itself representing a gift to us...
Slowly my village seemed to be one of the most happening places. I started enjoying every single day of it. The scenic beauty of the greenery with the touch of cool, smoky winter morning, sound of leaves, chullah made foods, coming across with some common reptiles and birds, taste of some rare fruits and vegetable, unique village festivals and so on, making my surrounding a happening one .Everything is like a memorable episodes of life. But my most favorite doings are to pluck lots of beautiful flowers for puja in morning, to have our breakfast on the house roof with my cousins and to watch the beautiful starry sky at night. Friends, here I want to share a little more about starry nights. The sky is filled with so many glittering stars that you will hardly find a space between them. Its a rare kind of view. By watching those stars I have developed a special kind of fondness for glittering stars from my childhood. Every night I choose the most shining star of the sky. I have discovered my village as a most wonderful place on the earth. Now I have realized why my father always loved to spend his time here. Why he had chosen this place for his last days. Yes, sometimes time solves our questions and I am on the time-traveller's machine...
So friends, life is not all about happiness u get or you expect.........It’s about happiness you discover in yourself. God gives us some and we have to find out the rest..............Keep smiling always and always remain Yoooo!!!!
